Enchanting Story

I waited my whole life For this to happen.That someday i gonna take a turn and the scene would be different.
Like narnia, hogwarts, fillory.I will dive in to a new beginning and after looking in every closet in every plateform between 9 and 10,Through every clock and
collecting many buttons.
Nothing happened until then.
Just when i decided to give up i stumbled across it.
I ran into an accident and woke up in it.

The beauty FORBIDDEN in my
World,the rainbows, the river, the scent of flowers,Birds chirping,Squirrels running.
Clean air,glittering land.
I also saw mister beaver.
A small pond of choclate and
Some candy trees of every flavor i saw gnomes squealing giggling And a fairy whispered in my ear.
“You came here oh mighty human!
To this ENCHANTED perilous place. ” PERILOUS ?
But its so beautiful so pure
I interjected.
” … and every beauty has a price.” She corrected.
The fairy choked with wide eyes and flew away in mist. I call for her but she disappeared so i tried taking a look around, went in the dense forest.
Something came behind me
Eyes blindfolded, i was lifted and i felt the earth moving then stopped when the smell of mud filled it. I ripped the blindfold off in the darkness. I stood up and looked around.there was noone. I was in a cave,the walls were wet. A little nudge on the feet i blinked and look down. Drawfs?
No goblins sir.
My name is mitaku and i m
Tarifi sir.
And i…
Ok hello.. Er.. so why did you kidnapped me? I asked
Because its not safe out there for you sir. Mitaku replied.
This is the world of beautiful ILLUSION sir.
Everything you can dream of is there, To some its just a good job or high salary
To some its a big plate of food, To some its a whole world. You made this world happen, so think what peril you must have added?
I.. I don’t know
Look around and think what it reminds you of?
The land is as beautiful as fillory, the creatures are as funny as narnians then if i added fillory and narnia there must be something of potter’s.
Is it dementors?
Or you know who?
Or pink fluffy umbridge?
Its black and fluffy no pink sir without a nose under a hood.
She is… She is..
We can’t take her name sir.
You know who is a she?
What is her name?
Lady voldemrige.
I gave a shaky laugh. It is really my imagination.

So i need to defeat her? Yes sir if you defeat her the kingdom will be yours.
Easy peasy its all in my mind isn’t it?
You don’t know the peril of poisonous thoughts sir.
You made it all happened by what you thought and once you think you can’t unthink it.
She is made up of your weaknesses, your worst nightmare, your worst memories. We have been keeping up with her but its you who needs to fight her or she will take over and this whole beautiful world will be enchanted with her darkness, we will all be frozen forever and you will suffer a fate worse than death.
I gulped. How do i fight her?
oh silly with all the goodness you have. Squealed a tiny little goblin girl from behind.
i told you to keep quiet terri said the leader mitaku.
So there are goblins and fairies and talking animals what else?no human?
I mean if there is a version of voldemort there must be
Alice? Hermione? Lucy?
I didn’t get you sir said mitaku
Obviously he is talking about the fountain girl. Squealed terri.
The fountain girl?
No no don’t stop her. Speak little one.

The girl who merpeople saw near the fountain, disappers in thin air. Dress in white,
Blond hair. Merpeople say she is a cursed witch. To free her from curse you have to kill the witch.
Lets kill the witch i said.
If you want to kill the witch you need to defeat her in her own game.
Its now or never. I have waited my whole life for a chance now is my chance to do something good, to be a hero.
I gonna challenge the evil witch i gonna save the good witch and i gonna rule this mind palace.
Marching out of the cave towards the battle ground.

The scene at the battle ground resembled that one stage i never succeded in the video game. She was there with a glowing sword laughing at me. I had my bow and arrow ready. Its simple three chances to kill and survive or lose and die.
I missed the first arrow, she moved so fast and i saw blood dripping, she got my shoulder.
With injured shoulder and shaking hands i aimed again towards when she came the white witch and whispered
Aim at the hawk, the evil’s bird. She gets her power from th bird. Kill the bird.
I know i just have this one moment before voldmridge knew what i did, i did it. She screamed with pain and fury and all went black. Every humiliating memory, every bad experience flashed around my eyes. The day he died, my father. The day she left, my lover. The day i failed. The darkness was growing on me slowly and slowly but then she jerked me up like a white light. Don’t lose it she said aim at her black heart but with the bunch of good thoughts, beautiful memories and happiness. you can do it.
I saw my mother’s face smiling, dad’s proud pat on my back, my dog running towards me and i killed the evil witch.
The sun shone bright.
The creatures yelled with delight
The beaver crowned me the king. The savior of my own world. She came smiling, more visible, more beautiful.
What’s your name? i asked
Alione she chirped.
Will you be my queen?
Oh but i already am.
This is my happily ever after.
I m here in my enchanted world.

He will survive, the accident was horrible..
“He may remain in coma for indefinite time” said the doctor.



I stumbled through platform 9&3/4 and some how ended up boarding the hogwarts express.
Enjoying the chocolate frogs and betty bott’s every flavor beans i went to hogwarts.
And it became a home to me.
Every time Hermione scored some points i tirumped.
I hopped on my broom to catch snitch like harry.
The mirror reflected my desire to be there.
The basilik tried to kill me.
I loved hagrid’s tea parties though his rock cake messed with my teeth.
I hated draco just for the fun of it and in potions me and neville almost failed.
My tea leaves predicted grim,
When the masmurderer was running amok, i try hiding in harry’s invisibility cloak.
I try befriending houselves
Though they weren’t in hogwarts a history.
I ate canary creams, feathers all over me.
I went to feed thresals with luna. She said i m as sane as she is.
Memory lane with Dumbledore right through the penisieve.
I skipped a beat when Hungarian horntail almost got harry.

Stupefy, expelliarmus, incendo
My patronus was a bird soaring.
Yes i was a member of DA
Rebelling against umbridge.
I went on search of horcruxes,
Invaded gringotts,
Trespassing ministry,
Morn over Dumbledore’s body,
Flew a dragon,
And fought in the battle of hogwarts.
Yes i did went there with

Harry ron hermione
Yes i lived those seven years
Several times through books and movies.
Cried with every death
Be it Dumbledore, fred, sirius, tonks, moody, remus or dobby.
Yes i won the triwizard cup.
Yes i was in gryfindoor, slythrin, hufflepuff and ravenclaw.
I studied with hermione,
Caught snitch with harry,
Got poisoned with ron,
Was laughed on with luna,
loved harry like ginny.

The book is my patronous to the dementors of life.


The Rhythm of vibrating bones

The crimson liquid running amok

And all humanity lost.

She screamed 

She struggled 

She tried fighting him off 

The lusty monster sneers

Tightening his hold 

Kicking her in the guts

He crawled away at last. 

She whimpered

Her screams died

The Peculiar silence pierced.

Night wept ,

the moon ashamed

The sky mourned

The air turned cold. 

They all witnessed the heinous crime. 

The death of Compassion in human kind. 

When fellow humans turned blind. 

She Trembled her way to home

Trapped in a real nightmare. 


Teenage love, roses, chocolate, hide and seek romance, innocent promises. The twilight saga seems a perfect partner for any teenage girl.Where do i start? 

From how i get exactly

“It was nice to be alone, not to have to smile and look pleased; a relief to stare dejectedly out the window at the sheeting rain and let just a few tears escape.”?

What this means. 


 the way lion fell in love with the lamb? 

Edward masen cullen, a good vampire, a perfect boyfriend. Every girl’s dream guy. 

With bella we all fell for him, 

Like bella we all had a heart break when he left

And like bella we all ran to him racing to save something infinity more precious. 

They gave us hope to believe in true love, 

“Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew – knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest – was how love gave someone the power to break you”

They gave us courage to choose

“The right thing isn’t always real obvious. Sometimes the right thing for one person is the wrong thing for someone else. So…good luck figuring that out.”

And it became our brand of heroin

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.”

Bella was frozed forever in her teens but the bella in me grew up. Her flawless world stopped matching mine. And as she said

“When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.”

Somewhere twilight has made me a better person , even if i count the similarities in choices or dissimilarities in actions both as equally been eye opener to me. 

“I promise to love you forever, every single day of forever.”


It was a rainy day, she was walking home from work without an umbrella when she met a stranger.
With sharing the same umbrella and sipping tea together soon the strangers became less than strangers.
Every night they met,
While walking from work.
Every day she talked
And he listened.
She smiled
And he stared.
She found a solace
In him.
The stranger became more than anyone else.
It rained again.
And she realised
It was the right time to confess.
Heart beating fast
And shivering voice
She started i…
But he stopped her
And apologized.
He said he isn’t what she thinks.
It can no longer happen.
There is no future for his being.
And she will never see him again.
And she never saw him again
He was gone as if he wasn’t ever there.
As if she imagined him.
Since then, every rainy night.
With his umbrella in the hand
She sat on the same bench


There is no such thing as past present or future. Its all time.
We do not live a century in the time consisting of uncountable centuries. What are we in the course of time?
Just like an ant is for us, Negligible nobody?
Time is infinite, we numbered it. Its passing, flowing like water in the river and we are like fishes going with it to our deaths but what impact do they have on river? What impact do we have on time? We do more harm then good.
We made a system out of it just to fool ourselves, dividing it. Saving it. Wasting it. As if it matters!
We are deluded into trying to leave an impact on it.
We think of future, in order to escape horrors of present.
We carry a burden from past.
And thats how we die.
And it does not matter.
Birth or death.
In an endless cycle of time.
What is death or birth?
And that’s what we are.
Absolutely nothing.

A Strange Encounter

He lived a busy life in the city. But he was never truly happy and he knew something was missing.

One night he walked up the hill overlooking his city. The thousands of lights couldn’t brighten his mood.
He turned around to walk back to his car when he saw movement in the bushes
“Who is there? ”
Panicking of being robbed he searched around for a broken glass bottle to defend himself. With a broken piece of glass in hand he called again.
“Show yourself ”
Not sure if he actually saw something or he imagined it. he turned again to leave when a voice came, almost a whisper.
” I don’t mean to hurt you”
He saw a beautiful girl standing in a short white dress, with long red hairs looking at him. It was difficult to say the color of her eyes but they must be chocolate brown.
She was barefoot.
“What are you doing here miss? ” He asked.
” I like up here. Its all so beautiful from here, you can’t guess the loneliness, the emptiness, the bitterness of the people who live in there.
You can’t see the faded paint of the buildings, you can’t hear the noisy honks or breathe polluted smoke. ”
she answered in a soft voice.
“True that’s why i came here. I m Dominique holden and you?”
“It doesn’t matter who you are or what your name is. ”
Why? He asked curiously.
” Wearing a well tailored expensive suit,
Shiny shoes not at all recommended for tracking to be honest, reeking of more than one perfume, a car waiting down the hill. a businessman.
More money than you can spend.
Boring, fed up with life, so busy that you cannot even afford to die,
sulking alone on a hilltop wondering what’s missing . ”
“Excuse me? ” he asked
Anger flushed on his face, he was angry not only because of her words but because of the truth in them.

” I have worked hard to reach where i m today at the age of 28 i have the biggest mansion of this town, i will soon be married to the most eligible bachelorette of this town and according to the growth rate of my company in 5 years I’ll have enough money that my next generation can spend their entire lives in luxury without working at all. ”

” Nice, Mr. Richy rich. You have everything that anyone in the town will dream of and still instead of resting on the soft comfy couch of your mansion you are here surrounded by Mosquitoes talking to a stranger you know nothing about trying to prove how lovely your life is..
“I m n.. Not trying to prove anything ” he yelled out.
” Sorry. i didn mean to shout “embarrassed he muttered.
She smiled.
” Who are you trying to convince me or yourself?”
“It doesn’t matter what you think. You are a nobody to me” he replied annoyingly.
“Yes of course it doesn’t. I m noone but a stranger. You can walk away now and we may never meet again. There are a lot of people in this town who admires you for who you are, respects you for your work, work under you everyday why does a strange girl’s who met you at a hill top matters?” she replied matter of factly.
He sighed “because you saw the truth noone else ever did and you have the courage to throw it on my face with a smile too.”

“Oh Dominique! Look, look at the city what do you see? Everybody claims to be working to earn happiness. They see happiness in monetary objects. You are no different. So far in your life you have earned to live in luxury but no amount of luxury can provide the happiness you are seeking.” He chirped

“But we need things to survive, lecture about happiness to an empty stomach or to a shelterless man on a stormy night. ” he answered smartly

” I never said money isn’t necessary but its not everything. ” she said

” Then what is it that makes you feel complete? How to be happy?” curiously he asked.

That i can’t tell you, i can’t tell you what can make you happy. That’s for you to figure out.

Ok fair enough.
what makes you happy? you can tell me that right? May be I’ll find my way to happiness through yours.

Yes. I can tell you that.
My idea of happiness lies in little things,
Freedom of being unapologetically me.
Compassion for needy.
When a stranger smiles back at me.
When i share my food with a dog.
Fighting for the love of my life.
Dancing in the rain.
Memories that are worth more than all the money in the world.
Happiness lies in true essence of life.
Living it the fullest.

Inspired by her words. He smiled after a very long time. The stranger’s words have sank deep and opened up a vault of hope in his heart. He remembered his childhood, things that he used to enjoy. Friends with whom he spent the happiest time of his life. The teenage love he never really got over with.

“I see you are smiling. I leave you here now” she turned and started walking.
” wait you haven’t told me your name” he asked, in his mind he was determined to know more about her.
She stopped.
“With what name would you like to call me? She asked.
“So you won’t tell me your name?” His heart sank.
“C’mon choose a name ” she said ignoring his questions.
After thinking for a minute he replied.
” ava”

“The bird” she laughed in the most beautiful voice he had ever heard.
“Good bye Dominique, hope you will find your happiness ”

She walked away.
” Wait… You haven’t told me about yourself, how can i find you again?”
But she was gone.

From Next day, he was determined to make a difference.
When he entered the office as usual every employee wished him good morning the unusual was his smile at them.
Half way through the day, he walked to the old age home and registered to be a part of regular visitor’s group.
They days went by, he found a new spirit in his life. A new approach.
He was no longer missing anything.
Marriage was no longer a business deal or a status symbol for him.
He was determined to find love.
It wasn’t about money making anymore either.
He was spending it with both hands for good causes, making sure no one sleep empty stomach.
Building shelter homes, education centres.
Each step of compassion was a step towards his happiness.
He took out time to meet his old friends, planning visits, vacations.
He went back to his old love, books every night sleep came peacefully to him.
He finally found solace in his own life.
He wanted to meet the person who changed his life.
Determined to find her, he directed his best men to search for her.
Asked around the whole town himself but she was nowhere to be found.
Frustrated by the failure he went back to the hill . his last hope.
But she wasn’t there.
He found a piece of paper there, a letter.

Dear Dominique,
I knew you will come finding me.
I hope you have found your happiness, don’t let anything take it away from you. Not even me.
Stop searching me as I m somewhere you cannot reach. Enjoy the beautiful life you have, for yourself and for me.

Almost Amour

”I don’t know if i am a monster aria, and i won’t drag u into this hell with me. I m who i m.
may be its too late to save me but its still not late to save you. You don’t have to be a part of this.
Yes i trapped you. ” he shouted unable to control himself he took a moment and then started again
”I did this to take revenge from you for leaving him, he was my best friend. ” he closed his eyes in disgust.
”He convinced me that he loved you and u left him. he said if i break your heart you will go back to him but… But i can’t.” He stammered.
Sigh* ” Meeting u, Making you fall for me was all planned But i never thought i will…. ” He stopped.
(exhale) ” I trapped you.” and he turned away.

Stunned she stood there. Unable to move, to save her world from falling apart. What was she thinking? She has been through this once and she let it happen to her again?

”Stop! Still blaming yourself? You are too good for your own good area . now listen to me. ” he grabbed her from her shoulder
‘U fell in the trap.’
“Mmhmm” She replied recollecting herself she has to be brave, she has to act strong she can go through this. You won’t fall in pieces not in front of him. She mentally tried to convince herself
‘It was never easy, u were the most challenging ever.” he said lost in his mind
” But worth it. ”
She smiled and finished.
‘I was patient he went on, it seemed like he wanted to keep talking.
”I know you were smart and you won’t let me come near you, easily….. ”
”You were consistent ” she replied
‘ Right’ he smiled.
”But even i was surprised when u fell for me. ” he stated
With a sigh she said “It was the pain in your eyes i got connected to, i sensed danger too but your words got better of me.”
“A reader’s weakness, words” he smirked.
‘ You r good and kind, you always see the good in people. You saw it in me and you did everything for me. You took care of me, you were understanding, honest and loyal
And that’s why i have to go away from u”
he confessed.
“Because u fell for me too?” She blurted out
”No.. No i didn’t. It doesn’t matter, Don’t fool yourself again. ” he said angrily.
” I played you and i m being honest with you” he yelled
“because u hv feelings for me.” She said Before she could stop herself.
“I have done it before, i do it all the time.
I flirt around, i have fun but you.
You were going to spoil your career on me,
Giving up an opportunity like that? He laughed
‘I hv no feelings OK? Don’t you know better? Haven’t u been through this before. Go save yourself.”
But who he was fooling, she knew it, she knew that he loved her but he has wounded her too. It wasn’t a choice. She could have stayed with him they were in love but its not all about love. She could not trust him, he had lost her trust and her respect . He knew that too. And she was ready to lose everything over him and that’s why she should go away from him And so she did. She went away from him, she did saved herself. But she never stopped loving him. And he never stopped too.. But sometimes no matter how much two persons love each other, they can’t be together because together they hurt each other more. So they saved themselves and each other by staying away.

2 months ago.
If she could have woke up half hour earlier, she wouldn’t have collided into him that day.
She wouldn’t have seen those eyes and it wouldn’t have started. Or may be it would have. Time wants to happen and it eventually finds a way to happen no matter how much you try to avoid it. After her first heartbreak in school, she never gave dating much of a thought. The ghost of her past still haunted her at nights and its still hard for her to trust anyone. But it was those eyes that made her want to know more about them.
The person attached to the pair of eyes was reehan.
Its been a week since they first met and they came close to almost kissing last night.
The environment in aria room was awkward and gloomy, she was meeting reehan in an hour and she was trying to assemble what she gonna say to him.
Look we need to talk she said without meeting his eyes
Stop i have to say this pls
Listen i want us to be cleared of what happened last night.
Aria what happened was natural. And i m not gonna deny my feelings for you anymore. And as soon as i get another chance i gonna Complete what i left yesterday.
She blushed, that was one of the things she liked about him, his straightforwardness
But before that i want you to know what you feel about this
Slowly she looked at him.
Yes. I do have feelings for you. But if we are heading towards something serious i want you to know something about me. I know it might be to early to think about serious but i don’t do flings, if i get involved with someone i prefer to think it can be everlasting.
Okay. So whats that you want me to know?
That i have a bad past. And she stopped she wasn’t ready to talk about it. She had hidden it in the darkest corner of her heart. She can’t go there.
Its ok aria, you don’t have to tell me right now. I understand you have a past. You don’t have to talk about it until and unless its what you want.
‘May be okay will be ours’ he quoted.
And they both smiled.
Love was in the air and food and water and dreams and almost everywhere for reehan and aria. They were quite a match. With reehan all her wounds were sealed painless, aria gave a reason worth living for to reehan.
It was cold winter night, they were out in their secret place watching stars together.
”when i was a kid i used to think ppl who die​
 turn into the stars.”

“its hard to imagine a science geek like you could believe in such illogical story even as a kid” he teased.
“says the guy who keeps a lucky candy wrapper in his locker ” she laughed
” i don’t need that anymore ” he said
Why.? Aria asked
” Because i have you now” he said leaning towards her.
“so i m your substitute to a candy wrapper? Oh its nice to know” she said pushing him a little.
No silly, he said leaning in close, she can feel him breath ing in her hair. “you are my lucky charm”
” I love you”
they kissed.
“I love you too” she said catching her breath.
She sat up, he can see something is bothering her, every time they talk serious about love she seems zoned out.
Why are you so afraid aria.? He finally asked.
She looked at him, thinking to say something or not.
“you know you can tell me anything, i won’t be mad at you” he spoke softly.
”I m afraid beca… Because you are not eligible for love unless you are ready to burn yourself for someone and still choose to love from your ashes. In love you are ready to give up everything, even yourself. Love can make you do silly things, love doesn’t value right or wrong it only values togetherness and that’s what i m afraid of. To become someone i left behind me. ” she exhaled, saying it all out felt oddly light. It had been bothering her for weeks.
He looked at her amazed. She was not meeting his eyes.
“Sometimes love reveals who you are, aria. I don’t know about right and wrong but with you i wanna do the right thing. And i would do every silly thing to make you laugh. Love isn’t the problem, problem is when you fall for a wrong person and love him with all you have. ”
Under the sky in the moon light she kissed him again. All the pain, all the doubts forgotten. She found solace in him.
Aria was lucky she didn’t got caught on her way back to her room, she was noisy and distracted. Filled with happiness, almost bouncy.
She reached her room and got ready for bed. Wanted to see him one more time before closing her eyes she glanced at her phone when she saw a missed call. Ayan.
All the happiness drained out of her.
Past is very excel in sneaking back into our lives without us knowing. One moment she was radiating with happiness another moment he came back to suck every ounce of happiness out of her. No no no she won’t let this happen, she won’t let him ruin this. She has to tell reehan.
She typed a msg for him to meet her first thing in the morning and spend night twisting and turning in her bed waiting for the sun to come up. Thinking about all those moments.
She went to meet him in the cafe when she saw him arguing on the phone
“no.. No.. No! I don’t think she is lying, i think you are lying. No.. I can’t do this anymore, i won’t. There was a pause. Ok she hasn’t told me anything yet.. But.. But..” And he saw her standing “later” he hung up.
He walked towards her.
Hugging he greeted her.
Reehan: Hey!
Aria : Hey.. I need to talk to you… “And her phone rang.
Its from professor tilik
Reehan : Take it.
Aria : He needs to see me in his office, now.
Reehan : Okay i see you later.

The dreams, they do come true for some of us but the trick is the timing. And timing was definitely not right according to aria. She got offered scholarship for her dream college in new York but to leave now is to leave reehan too. May be she can convince reehan to move there with her or may be she can convince herself that she don’t wanna go there anymore but not once did she considered leaving him behind.

Her phone rang.
Why are you not picking up my call.
Ayan? Is that you? Yes. Why are you not picking up from my number. I have called you thrice.
Have it ever occurred to you that may be i don’t wana talk?
Look Aria. You still love me. And i love you too.
Stop! Don’t you dare say that. I have moved on ayan, I m with someone and i love him. You, you are nothing but a mistake of my past.
Oh c’mon aria, I did some mistakes alright but we can still amend things. Forgive me pls.
Forgive you? Do you even remember what you did or tried to do to me that night? Or how you made a scene in front of all my friends at my birthday party. I was nothing but a trophy girlfriend to you. You made me doubt myself, you made me hurt myself.
I m sorry aria, i really am.
Save it ayan.
But he is not any better, is he? Ohh don’t tell me you don’t know. He isn’t a saint either aria.
Shut up!
And she hung up.
It was hard to breathe. What does he mean by that comment on reehan, was he just messing with her mind. Is there something she don’t know? Now that she thinks of it there is not much she knew about his past.

For the next two days reehan was out of town visiting his parents. Aria was worried, as soon as he gets back they had to have a proper discussion on both if their pasts and also on the scholarship.

Sometimes, living is the bravest thing to do. I met ayan in high school. We were classmates. I used to be the goofy science nerd. The innocent, happy, sweet and passionate one. Top of everything, teacher’s favorite, someone every other student look up to. But being on the top is lonely too. You get many admirers but no friends and thats where ayan comes in the story. It started with maths study group. We exchanged numbers and he was there always. With a bottle of water right after my debate, Saving me a seat in the crowded auditorium, bringing food when i m busy on cultural fest. Little things add up to create something big don’t they? But when he proposed me, i wasn’t ready.
Reehan looked at her. His expressions were unreadable.
“aria are you sure you want to tell me this?”
” i better eliminate everything that can create a wedge between us, i trust you and you deserve to know”
Reehan takes a deep breath, “okay
Just keep in mind nothing can change the way i feel about you”
“I m counting on that” aria said trying to read his eyes.
He smiled.
Aria: ” So, i wasn’t ready but i didn’t knew how much he had become the part of my life, the week that followed was awkward. He wasn’t in touch much and his absence made me realize how much his presence mattered. So when we saw each other and he proposed again, i said yes. ”
Aria smiled taking a deep breath.
After a moment she started again.
” You know when you wish for something obsessively, you try hard to get it? But when you get it you don’t know what to do with it. Yes that was the case with Ayan, i was just a trophy that he could show off. My first kiss wasn’t magical as i had dreamt it was more of a shock, i wasn’t ready or comfortable. And that’s how things were. Lies, one sided decisions, fights and it never got better. I felt suffocated and afraid.
He wasn’t the person he pretended to be.
And i wasn’t the girl he wanted me to be.
I tried saving my relationship by doing whatever i could. I wanted it to work. I did whatever he wanted me to even if that meant compromising who i m for a really really long time but it wasn’t enough. Despite of every effort, he cheated on me. That’s when i walked out of it. ”
She paused, it was hard to talk about it. She had kept it locked for so long.
Aria:” And i want you to know that some part of me is still haunted by it. When i m with you, i feel like my self, i feel happy. Your presence makes me wanna believe in love and i do. I love you. ”

She wasn’t meeting his eyes, afraid what she might saw in them.
What if he despise her or don’t wanna be with her anymore?
Aria: ” Look, if you don… Don’t wanna… I’l understand. ”

Reehan took her on his arms ” Hey, hey hey.. Aria. I love you and i respect you even more. I don’t know what i have done so right to deserve someone like you. ”
They stayed in each others arm for a while, she felt solace, safe. She felt happy but it was time to let go, reehan’s body was tense. He moved, he stood up and started walking and then he came back to sit on front of her
Reehan : ” Aria.
I have to tell you something. I m not the person you think i m. I m not the person i pretended to be with you.”
Aria: “what? What are you saying reehan. ”
Reehan closed his eyes, took a deep breath and in calm but determined voice said ” I m his friend, did he ever talked about ray? ”
Aria was confused “Ray? Ray from Manhattan? You? No. No you can’t be, no that’s not possible.
Ayan said ray taught him how to get a girl, he trained him to get me.
You did that to me?
Reehan in a flat voice  “Yes from the day he told me he has a crush on you to the day you said yes. I set every step, i asked him to stay away from you for a week, i knew you will come back if you miss him.

It always works.
See i never thought he had it in him to flirt around, he never did before you. I thought he was serious for you. So i did him a favor by helping him get you. I m sorry he did that to you.

” You are sorry? Why do you care?
You are a monster!

After 5 years of breakup.

Aria graduated from new York academy and was working in a reputed science laboratory. Over the years she has also written two best sellers of the year. It was a chilly morning, she was walking her way to the office when she heard
“words are the most underestimated and misused weapons of the world ”
The voice was oddly familier, she immediately turned around to see the owner of the voice
” Reehan?”
“Hey aria”
” What are you doing here?”
“I followed you here ” he joked
I got a job.
And soon they were sitting in a coffee shop talking about job, life, catching up about what happened and all
Reehan: its nice to see you again.
Aria: the feeling is mutual. it reminds me you quoted something from my book.
Reehan : yes
Aria: “oh, well you always were more of a movie person than book? I see that has changed.
Reehan said in a timid voice ” no it hasn’t, its just… Its just you wrote them, how could i not read them, Aria? ”
They looked at each other.
Tring tring… Tring tring..
Holy crap! I forgot, i have a meeting in 10.
I should get going.
Reehan : do i get to see you again?
Aria : weekand, call you. Got to rush.

Reehan reached at the address of nightclub that aria had texted him. He went in and started looking for aria. He finally spotted her dancing with someone. Even after these years, watching her dancing with someone else was unbearable for him. Letting her go was right thing to do, what he ever did to deserve her anyway. After the day they broke up he indulged himself in his studies, determined to do something right.
And he made it to New York and found her too.

Aria: hey, daydreamer
Reehan: hey aria, sorry i… Aria started again
Reehan meet sam.
Sam : so you are the friend she was talking about the whole week.
Sam! Aria smacked his hand.
Sam: chill aria. Welcome to New York reehan.
Reehan : thanks. Its nice to meet you.
Sam: you too. Let me get you something guys something to drink ” he left.
Aria: lets go dance.

They danced drank together, reehan and Sam get along with each other well. Reehan noticed the way Sam looked at her, it seems aria was oblivious to that. They were friends from college time, working together now. Sam definitely has feelings for her but does she feels the same way for him? Is it too late for reehan.

Next they met at a football game. It was when aria left early for some urgent work. Reehan decided to confront Sam
Reehan : ” hey buddy can i ask you something ”
Sam : ” yeah anything, what’s up ? ”
Reehan” look i know its personal but i noticed the way you look at aria and i think she doesn’t know that…
Sam “yes i have been thinking of asking her out but i don’t want to lose her as a friend. You are her friend may be you can help me”
Reehan stared at him.
Sam: “oh c’mon! I know you guys have a history, i sensed that. But its history right? ”
Reehan muttered deja-vu under his breath : ” you are a nice guy, you are my friend too. But i cant help you with this. I…. I can’t. ”
Sam: ” its ok.,i understand. I shouldn’t have asked”
Reehan : ” its ok buddy, lets hid the bar together.”

Life has a funny way of reminding us we are missing something when we think its perfect.
Never did aria thought she will see reehan again then why does it feels like she was hoping she will, like she was waiting for him to come. On the top of it things with Sam were weird these days, he looked like he wanna say something to her but not a word comes out of his mouth. One more day like that and she gonna have to
Grab him by his neck and make him speak what’s wrong.
Next morning in the office.
Aria: morning, Sam.
Sam: um..hey aria, mornin..
Aria: look Sam whatever it is just spit it out. I know you were there last night, at the concert. First we plan it, they you bailed on us. Then you show up and when i waved at you.. You just disappeared? I know u saw me and reehan there.
Sam: Aria.. Its nothing..
Sam: nothing? You are acting weird since the day you went to that football game with reehan. Is it something he said? Tell me.
Sam : “its nothing aria seriously. Look i have to go meet the boss, we’ll talk later.
Aria: later then.
Later never came, she called him but it went straight to voice mail. Sam went out of town for some research work for a week and he didn’t even called aria. Aria assumed the worst, she was sure it was something Reehan said to him that has done this.
She called him.
Reehan hello Aria can i call you later, i m busy right now.
Aria: i need to see you, where are you?
Reehan : in the office, I’ll call back, sorry. Gtg.
Aria hung up and took a taxi to his office.
She went straight to his office, he was in a meeting it seems.
Aria: i want to talk to you.
He was shocked to see her there.
Reehan : i m sorry gentleman, can we continue this later?
The men went out.
Reehan : sit down Aria.
Aria : no just tell me what did you say to Sam.?
Reehan : Sam? What happened? What’s wrong?
Aria : why is he avoiding me? Since the day you guys went to the game together he is acting weird. Tell me what you did to him?
Reehan : oh!
Aria: oh? So you know whats wrong with him? What did you do? Told him about us and everything? Threatened him to stay away or something else? Still playing games reehan?
After all those years! She spitted those words
Reehan’s face tightened with agony, he balled his fists.
Reehan : look Aria, you should ask him. If he hasn’t told you. I m no one to say anything.
Aria: told me what?
Reehan : are you blind? Can’t you see? Anyway its his call to make, not mine. If you want me then i can call him and ask him to give you a call. Aria: no, don’t bother. And she stormed out.

Sam came back that night. Aria was fast asleep when she heard her door bell. She got up to see who is visiting her at the middle of the night.
It was sam.
Aria: Sam? What are you doing here at this hour? I thought you still have 2 more days of tour left.
Sam: i came early, listen i wanted to talk to you.
Aria: did Reehan called? Look whatever he said or did you can tell me okay?
Sam: its not his fault.
At the game, i asked him to help me with…. I m, i love you Aria, i wanted to propose you but i was afraid to lose you as a friend so i asked him to help me.
Aria: oh! (muttering) deja vu..
Sam: what? I didn’t catch that.
Aria : he must have asked you to stay away from me for a week to make me realize your presence in my life and how much your absence hurts or something? Wow! Still the same after all this time?
Sam: what? No no no.. That’s not what happened.
Aria: don’t you dare defend him, she was shouting now.
Aria? Aria listen. He grabbed her from shoulders to make her listen.
Aria he said no. He said he can’t help
Aria: he denied? Then why were you avoiding me?
Sam: after game when we went out for drinks, we were talking about you and he way he talked. It was as if you were his star, the one who is source of all the light in his life. Someone he would end his life for. The smile on his lips when he talk about you, the way he talks about you. I figured he still loved you much more than i love you.
Aria grasped.
But he went on.
” he never mentioned it to me, he just told me that i m a nice guy and if it turns out that you have feelings for me too. He will be happy for both of us. He just wanted me to know that you have been hurt in past and i should take care of you”

Aria for once i thought may be i should ask you out but i was a coward, i wanted to know what you feel about him. I came to that concert and i noticed you with him. You were a different person, a reckless person, laughing out loud. I saw you looking at him in the same way as if he was your star too. It was too much i fled. I heard you calling after me.
Next i was torn between taking advantage of the fact that you two weren’t aware of your own feelings towards each other and asking you out. Or just telling you the truth.
It was killing me. I was this close to asking you out but i realised. What type of person i m becoming?
I took the research project, i thought it would help me to clear my mind. I did research of my own there.
It turned out ayan hasnt heard from reehan from last 5 years. But the most interesting fact is that Reehan was offered a job in london, higher rank and twice pay. He refused it. One of his classmate said he didn’t even considered London he was always planning for New York. I wonder why? But do you?
And yet he said he would be happy if you would choose me. That guy loves u Aria. Damn it!
Oh my god! Oh my god! I accused him. He was so polite and i was shouting at him. She remembered the agony on his face.
“I have to meet him. I have to go”
I’l take you there.
But the flat was locked he wasn’t there, he wasn’t picking up their calls either. They called his office but he left early.
They headed back to Sam’s car when aria saw a shadow in the garden.
Aria? What are you doing here?
Are you ok?
I m sorry reehan i accused you. I m so sorry. She was in tears.
Its ok aria, it was a misunderstanding.
Sam is good for you aria, sorry if i messed that up for you. I promise i won’t come between you guys.
Aria: shutup. Sam is a friend and he is stupid enough to make me realize who i really love.
Reehan looked puzzled.
Aria: 5 years ago we fell in love. But i was haunted by my past and you came to me for al the wrong reasons. It has been 5 years but its still you i hunted down at 3 am. Its still you with whom i feel myself. Its still you i think of when i watch a romantic movie. I love you reehan.
Reehan: oh aria i thought i lost you. I knew i never deserved you. But i never loved anyone else but you.
They kissed.
Chuckling reehan : so?
Aria : so?
Reehan : now what?
Aria: now i m ready to give us a second chance. Are you?
Reehan : i m, love. I m all yours always and forever.

A baggage

Lets pack a bag
Of all the bad things that happened.
All the people who you hated. All your guilt regret and worry
Pack it so that you can carry,
Carry it on your back
Getting heavier with each step you take.
Slouching, bending
Stoop to crawling.
Until you can’t move ahead .
Baggage is now crushing your head.
You came to halt,
Its all your fault.
You need to light the bag
Write it down,
What happened.
Flush it,
Burn it or
Tear it apart.
Let go.
Now comes the time for the ppl you hate.
Give them the benifit of being only human.
You are not responsible for their actions
So you try to forgive and forget.
Trickiest of all,
Its your call
To say its ok
To yourself.
To let go of all the guilt
And overcome every regret.
Moving on its still there
Weight of useless worries
List down
All the happy things,
Note down all the options you have,
Pen down what you can do.
And take a deep breath.
Now its time you throw away.
The empty little bag.
So that you never ever
tempt to Fill it again.

Sleepless night.

Bizzare thoughts of an unnerved mind, Human desires of am inhuman kind.

An angry bliss
What did you miss?
A cool breeze of an autumn night.
Clear sky and the moonlight.
Gazing the pattern the stars made,
Naming my own constellations. Until a peck of uninvited
Fellows, disturbs the whole
Heavenly sight.
Back again, under the roof.
Like a genie just gone with a poof.
The comfy bed, the artificial air.
Soothing but no waving hair.
The pillow talks
With tedy bear.
At 2 am the stomach growl.
Its time for nightime snack bowl.
Tip toe into kitchen space,
Where mouses are running race.
The tired eyes and noisy head.
Settled to read a torn book.
Lets get back to the potter world
Did you like trice’s new look?
Or is it edward bella’s wedding day?
Or Hannah baker is live in stereo?
What world is your escape today?
The struggle of eyes
Against the stubborn mind.
Oh shutdown your train of thoughts.
Stop tangling the memory knots.
The sun comes up.
And the mind gives up.
The eyes have finally won the fight .
The train of thoughts
Comes to its stop
And an end to sleepless night.